Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Kidnapped - Chapter 7

After long days - and nights - of writing, chapter seven of kidnapped is finally finished.

It can be found here. Enjoy!

Writing for me is a slow, drawn out process that involves lots of coffee and too many distractions. My room is where I write and it's not like it's distracting or anything, because it isn't. Most of my distractions come from the evil social networking site, Facebook, and music. Although music is a must for my writing, it's also a major distraction. One thing leads to another and suddenly I'm on Youtube looking at videos of kittens playing peek-a-boo.

Any tips for staying focused? Leave them below in the comment section. As for my tips - hey they've helped me finished half a novel, they can't be that bad.


  1. Set a work timer for about 20 - 30 minutes depending on how much you want to get done.
  2. When that timer is up, give yourself a 5-10 minute break.
  3. Try to keep your distractions minimal. Perhaps allow music but no texting or Facebook time.
  4. Keep your work space organized. This helps you to not want to clean it as a form of procrastination. 
  5. Stay motivated! Don't let anything bring you down that could effect your work quality.
  6. Don't let your brain get worn out - stay awake with coffee, tea, or fruit.
  7. Plan! Plan out what you want to write or work on so that it's not improvised and half-hearted.
Well that's all that I can think of! I hope they came in handle a little bit!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Good News

This past week has certainly been a busy one, full of joy, noise, and blessings.
To start the week off, I received an email from The Lit Leak saying that my poem that I entered for publication was accepted! My poem "Redemption" is going to be published in August of this year!
After literally just checking the website, I am proud to say it's featured on there as a preview of the magazine! What a great way to start the week, right?! After that I went to go see The Fray perform with my older sister at Chastain Park Amphitheater on Friday!

They are incredible live!

I would love to see them again. On Saturday morning, my family (with the exception of my father & sister) went to South Carolina to get my brother's senior pictures taken at my uncles house. It was a lot of fun to spend time with my cousins while helping my uncle take some great pictures of my brother! We also went to downtown Greenville to take some pictures and it was so beautiful. Rustic buildings lead you down long streets filled with cute restaurants, art galleries, and different types of stores. From there, we headed over to a gorgeous park with this large bridge hanging across "The Falls," a river with a medium-sized water fall.

Even though I dislike bridges with a passion, it was nice to see the lovely site. Moments like that had me wishing I would've thought to bring my camera on the trip. Of course, my camera doesn't hardly compare to my uncles, which was incredibly sharp and quick. I've also started thinking about what camera I would like to start saving up for. I already have a nice camera - a Nikon Coolpix L320 - but the type of camera I want isn't for just taking everyday pictures. It's specially designed for "astrophotography," the art of taking photographs and videos of the stars, planets, galaxies, and everything in between.

The camera I'm interested in is called the Nikon dslr3200 - an amateur camera for this type of photography. It ranges from between $450 to $550 depending on who you buy it from. It's much more expensive than my current camera, but you can imagine why! It's for taking far, far away pictures. Better versions of this camera may go for $4,000+, but those are for professionals.

I'm not a professional.

The final thing on my "Good News" post is that I'm going to see RadioDriveBy, Shout London, and a few other bands on the 29th! You may not be excited for me, but I love any concert, haha. Well, I think I'm coming to an end for this post; it's beginning to get late here. Thanks for reading!

Saturday, July 12, 2014

The Rut of Writing

Funny how I can sit down and write a blog entry, but when it comes to continuing my chapter, I'm lost. I finally finished editing chapters 1-6 of Kidnapped and now I'm working on chapter 7. I've only gotten to 30k words and in order for it to be more drawn out, I need more detail and more action. Unfortunately detail is my downfall.
I mean, I know how to add detail. I can add lots of detail, sure. But when I read over it, I feel like it's too drawn out and boring. I don't know if that could be my own judgement or if it's true. Ultimately my goal is to get published, but I don't want to send in some boring work. I need to spice it up, add some action. I have all of these plans for my book and I know what I want to happen - my problem is getting there. I desperately need to get there. Once I finally do.. all of this writers block and distress will go away. I have issues with jumping from my character's thoughts back to the current time without it seeming short or cut off. 
If any of you guys have tips please give them to me! I am in serious need of them right now. I want my first novel to be around 50 or 60k words so that it might be 250 pages or so. But most of all, I want my first novel to be good. I want it to be a hit and I want it to be published with a relatively good company so that it will be more popular. I don't want this because of my own desires for it to be a famous book, I want the message of the book to be heard. I think that Kidnapped has a good message to hear because it shows a young girl in distress, trying to escape from her life of lies and hurt - even if it means giving everything she loves away - because it's for the best. We all know the hardest things in life to do are the best things for us. What I'm trying to get people to see is not that you have to be in a difficult situation like Erica, but that no matter what situation you're in, you can overcome. You don't have to be in pain anymore because you can escape. You can conquer whatever is holding you back from being who you were created to be.  

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

That Frustrating Moment when...

You're editing your work and change tabs just to find out when you go back, your work isn't saved and you're now logged out of that website.
I swear I'm going to cry. I wasn't too far in to editing chapter four but I had made a lot of good changes that I can't remember now. My frustration doesn't come from myself but the Figment website for randomly signing me out. I guess I can't complain too much, it was inevitable. SO I guess I'll stop complaining and go back to revising chapter four. Before I go - chapter 1, 2, and 3 are finished and you can find them here. Thanks for listening to me rant. :p

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

The Revised "Kidnapped." Chapter one.

Hey, look who's posting! Yay! So I read through Kidnapped and revised it - or at least one chapter (It took me over an hour!) - and I've decided to share it with you guys! I made quite a few changes to the wording and fixed spelling and punctuation errors. I hope you enjoy it and leave comments about it down below!  



Prologue: 

PROLOGUE:
Everyone thinks I'm dead. But they don't really know that I'm alive. They don't know that the person they found in the woods isn't me. And that guy they put in jail? He didn't kill me, he doesn't even know me. Well I'm sure he does now, because I'm pretty famous around town as the girl who was kidnapped and killed.
But like I said - I'm not dead. I'm fully alive, I'm healthy, and I am in love. You're probably wondering with who, because since I've been kidnapped, whoever sees me will automatically go to the police, right? Well let me tell you. I'm in love with my kidnapper.



 ONE: November 12th, 2004 (Past)







I was eight years old when I was kidnapped. Dad had just left for work and Mom was teaching Nicholas, my older brother, how to use the washing machine. I couldn't take the noise, so I decided to go outside. I will never know if my Mom heard me when I said that I was going outside, but I did try to tell her. I was playing with my little doll that I got as an early birthday present; my birthday was the next day. Anyway, while I was playing I saw this beautiful dog walking down the street. My mother had told me many times before not to leave the yard, but there was something about this dog that made me just block that thought out and follow it.
Every time I would get within a few feet of the dog, it would turn around and look at me for a moment before walking even faster. Finally, we reached the park. The dog ran back down the street minutes later, leaving me behind, all alone in the park. Not completely alone, though. There were a few mothers, maybe a father or two. I decided to go play on the swings since I was already at the park. Suddenly I had firm hands of someone pushing me on the swing. I hadn't thought anything of it at the time. I let him push me until I was so high I could touch the tree branch that was resting just above the swing set.The man who was pushing me, who I now call Nathan, took hold of the chain that was connected to the seat. Him doing that sent me flying off of the swing, nearly breaking my arm. I remember him shouting,"Oh, sweetheart! Are you alright? C'mon darling, let's go home and get your scratches cleaned up."
I thought he was really going to take me home to help me. He didn't. He held my hand, walking me far away from my home. We went off of a road and into the country. I tried at least three times to take my hand from his, but his was too big and he kept his grip. We soon arrived in a very big field, a large SUV parked next to a small, withering tree. Nathan tightened his grip and began to kind of drag me toward the tree. By now I was crying, unaware of what could happen. A little boy, ten at the time, walked out from behind the tree with a rope in one hand, and duct tape in the other.
They tied me up and stuck layers of duct tape over my mouth, causing me to hardly be able to breathe. "Aiden," Nathan spat,"this is the one you wanted, right?" Aiden smirked at his father and nodded his head. He thanked his father, and did the "honor" of throwing me in the back of the car. I tried to scream, no noises escaping from my mouth, but tears streaming down my face. I soon ran out of energy and to my surprise fell asleep. When I woke up Nathan was hauling me into a small cabin. The grass there was, and still is, slowly dying. I've lived in this cabin most of my life and have never seen that grass a beautiful green like the grass at my old home.
The woods that the cabin was located at was far, far away from where I had lived, I soon learned; not that I was able to go to town many times. Nathan lead me to a small room in which walls were painted pink, my favorite color at the time.  There in the corner of the room, lay a twin bed, - something I still have - a purple comforter with pink butterflies neatly sitting on top of it. A small bedside table, a lamp upon it, was right next to that twin bed. And finally, a small dresser on the opposite side of the room. The only toy I had was my little doll I held tightly on to.
But on that bed there was a little girl who looked like me.
She had wavy brown hair, hazel eyes, and was tall, exactly like me. I was afraid at how much she looked like me; we could have been related. She had tears in her eyes as she said,"W-what are you doing with her? Are we going to be friends - there will be two of us? I - she. . .you're not getting rid of me, are you?! Where will I go?"
Tears began to stream down her face as Nathan nodded his head at Aiden and  pulled out a small pocket knife. "Follow me, Hannah," he said, holding his arm around her chest and the knife to her throat.
"Now." He pulled the doll from my hand and I cried and hollered.
She followed him and that was the last I ever saw of her. A few months later, the police found her in the middle of the woods behind a little grocery store. They called my parents thinking that she was me. My parents took one look at the doll and just assumed she was me - no DNA tests. Nothing. And that was that. I was dead to them. Gone. Vanished. The entire crime was over. The man who people saw lingering around the grocery store was a butcher and apparently my killer. His hands were bloody.  Hannah's body was bloody. So was my doll.

~`~`~`~


As days, weeks, months, and years have gone by, I found myself feeling as though Nathan was my father and this was home. I developed a crush on Aiden that is now a healthy relationship. At first, I must admit, I would do anything to get away. If he took me out to town, I would try to scream and do anything to be noticed, unless Aiden's hand wasn't clamped over my mouth. But as the days went by, I noticed something: I'm never going to be able to leave. I'm here forever; not that I mind. Although I wouldn't mind going to visit my parents and telling them that I'm safe, okay, and well... alive. I hope to do that on my sixteenth birthday, with my new identity as Erica Blackstone, daughter of Nathan Blackstone. And Aiden as Nathan's ex-girlfriends son whom he got custody of after her death.Everything, as Nathan would say, is going to turn out perfectly.

~`~`~`~

Present (November 12th 2012)


I laugh uncontrollably as Aiden stands over Nathan, re-dying his orange hair. Earlier today Aiden was asked to dye Nathan's graying hair brown. But they rinsed it too quickly and it turned bright orange. Now, after spending a while looking up how to get newly dyed hair color out of your hair - on our very, very slow internet I might add - we're finally re-dying it. This is the only solution we could find that wouldn't involve bleaching his hair."Stop laughing, Erica," Nathan says, trying to help himself from laughing.
"Sorry," I reply sheepishly. "It's just hilarious seeing you with orange - I'm sorry, red - hair!" I manage to lower my laughter to just a giggle. Nathan shakes his head, letting everything go like he always does. He takes everything so smoothly; he is a very mellow person. I stand up and walk over to Aiden, saying," I told you you  should've let me dye his hair. Now see what you've done?"  I kiss him on the cheek and walk back over to the uncomfortable couch I was just sitting on.
"I can fix anything I mess up, Erica." He mumbles, smiling in my direction.
Now let me tell you something about Aiden: he's one of those quiet people that don't really talk much. But when they do everyone listens, whether or not it's important. If he's talking about school, dinner, or his friends - anything. Everyone always listens. He doesn't really have a problem talking around me, though. No, really. He won't stop talking when it's only me and him. He's like one of those little house toys that I used to have. You press a button and it just won't shut up, asking you a bunch of questions until you answer. But Aiden's cuter than an annoying house toy so I enjoy listening to him. I grin watching his movements which are almost elegant.
Just thinking about Aiden makes me smile. I look at him, studying his amazing features. He's tall, probably six-foot-three. He has straight brown hair that falls over his eyes in that lazy, not-even-trying way. Speaking of his eyes, they're the most intriguing eyes I've ever made contact with and they're dark blue, almost black. You see them and just can't stop staring. Plus he's mine. I seriously still can't get this wrapped around my head. He's mine. I'm his. We're dating. We have been for three years now. Sometimes when I get angry at him(which is rarely), I want to run away. I get so angry that he chose me.
He chose me.
He was the one who pointed me out to his father; he wanted me. So what if we fight sometimes? He's never hurt me and I doubt he ever will. It's an hour later when Aiden's done with Nathan's hair, much longer than the internet said it would take. Aiden told me that he wanted to take me out for ice cream since my birthday is tomorrow, so I'm back in my room changing my clothes. Nathan gives me fifty dollars every month for clothes, so I have too much to choose from. I sigh in frustration and dig through my closet. I find a cute tank top with a pink, brown, and red flower pattern on it. I pull out a light brown cardigan too. It's probably a bad thing that I don't remember buying any of these things or getting them as gifts.
I pull the camisole over my head with a huff. It has gotten tighter since who-knows-when I last wore it, I think to myself. I dig out a pair of dark blue denim skinny jeans to go with the rest of my outfit.
"Erica," Aiden calls out,"ready to go yet?"
I tell him that I'll be down in a minute and fish through a basket that's full of shoes. I dig out some strappy light pink sandals and quickly shove them on my feet. I walk out of my bedroom and into the hallway, looking on the walls to see the pictures  on them. There are a few of me and Aiden on a beach. Me and Nathan, with Nathan's arm around my shoulders. Then as I walk down the hallway closer to the living room, the pictures change and I'm younger. Nathan's holding my hand and I'm staring at something with my mouth open slightly, gleam of fear in my eyes.
A sudden feeling - I'm not sure what - runs through me. I try to think back to that day. My breath catches in my throat and my eyes fill up with tears. I remember I was looking at three people. A woman, a man, and a little boy. I can't quite remember what they looked like, but I thought they were my parents. I'm not sure why I thought they were my parents, but I did.
Suddenly I feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn around to see Aiden."You okay?" he asks me. I can't read his expression.
I nod and sprout a smile at him."Yeah. Just looking at good times."
We walk outside and head to the car. Not much later we arrive at a small soft serve ice cream joint called Icey's.  My feet hit the hard, rocky gravel as I step out of the car and shut the doors. Aiden walks over to me and takes my hand in his, holding it firmly like he always does when we're in public. My heart still flutters whenever he holds my hands. He guides me to the door and opens it for me, still not taking his hand from mine. It's chilly in the ice cream shop, causing goosebumps to cover my pale skin. My gaze bounces around the room, noticing the cute baby blue walls and white tiles with blue specs in them. Along the walls hang black and white pictures of an older man and his son, I'm assuming from the resemblance. The store has little gray, round metal tables with matching chairs lining the walls and napkin holders on those. A smile escapes my lips as I feel like I've just taken a step into the 1950's.
I step out of my daydream and look at Aiden,"I'll have a va-"
Aiden cuts me off,"-nilla cone with colorful sprinkles? I know." He winks at me and lets go of my hand as I grin and excuse myself to go use the bathroom. On the way to the bathroom, you have to go through this little hallway, directly in front of me are two old-fashioned water fountains and above those are a bulletin board. On it there's a white paper with the word "MISSING" written on it in black ink. Below the word, there's an aged picture of a girl.
And she looks just like me.






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How did you like it?! Too short? Too Long? Let me know below! Also, the rest of kidnapped is available here! Some of it may or may not be revised depending on when you read it. I can't believe I'm almost 30,000 words into it! I'm hoping to finish it at about 60,000 or 80,000 words depending on how many pages that is.. my goal is about 280+ pages. Anyway, thanks for reading! 

Monday, July 7, 2014

The Good Type of Change

Does anyone read this blog anymore? If so, please let me know in the comments - I'm thinking of scrapping this blog and starting over. I'm going to give a brief update and I have a few things to tell you!
In my previous post I mentioned moving to Atlanta, and I did! We've been fully moved in to the house for a month or so now and we've already gone on vacation! We went to "The Forest" a.k.a the Brosnan Forest in Dochester, NC. It was such a wonderful experience. My family and I had a great time spending a week at this gorgeous lodge and swimming, biking, playing tennis, golf, volleyball - the works. The best part, I'd have to say, was spending time eating (lots of that) and talking to the family of the person who invited us on vacation; They really reminded me of my family up north. Also, since we were so close to Charleston, NC, we took a day trip there. Such a beautiful place!
It's already 6 months into the year and I can honestly say that this year flew by. With school, moving, and vacation, I haven't really had time to focus on anything because everything has been so fast-paced. However, that's going to change! I'm going to try my hardest to continue my blog on a weekly basis all the while continuing to write more. I feel like my writing has been awfully neglected and that makes me feel terrible.
Writing is my escape.
And boy do I need to escape..

I have considered scrapping Kidnapped and starting over - same plot and characters. I'm not sure I feel like it's flowing together like I wanted it to. I may just revise it and change things; I haven't yet decided. I'm also working on a much...darker book. It's about the struggles of a teen with insecurities and depression, I personally think it's great but it scares me to think about telling my parents about it because I believe they'll try to see it as a reflection of my feelings and I don't want to worry them at all.
If you can't tell, I haven't decided on a name. I'm thinking "Sliced" since it has to do with self-harm and issues that go along with that.
Like I said this book is not a reflection of myself.
It's just a subject I feel strongly about and would like to put into words. I hope that someone can read it and realize something about themselves that could help them overcome their problems.

Annnnnndddd.... what do you think about my new blog changes?! Like or no? I felt like I needed a brighter, less dark layout to the blog. I'm also working on changing the "Book Blog :D" part but It's late and I couldn't figure it out earlier so I'll try again tomorrow. Well, that's it for today. I hope you enjoyed this post; whether you're just passing by or a frequent stalker. ;)